What if...?

Let's be honest internet, I don't know what to talk about.

Seriously, I've got nothing. I was planning to bitch about the people who make life difficult to live with their stupid drama that, while they blame it on the world, it's really all their own doing, but what's the point? They're still going to complain and refuse to take responsibility for their actions.

Maybe I could complain about how in the last week I've packed up my entire life and moved for the third time in three months. About how I'm still completely destroyed inside by the fact that I was forcibly separated from many of the people I consider to be incredible friends. It wouldn't get us our old home and lives back.

Or, I could complain about how people trash talk others behind their backs. About how they say again and again how two people's relationship is going to fail and is making them different people and then being nice to their faces. If the relationship is going to end in ruin, then it will. If the two are happy, let them be. And if you're going to act like a vindictive bitch because you're upset your relationship prospects aren't going they way you want them to, at least have the decency to do it to their face.

I could talk about how I try to sound like I don't have these flaws when I know I'm as guilty as everyone else. About how no matter how hard I try to break from old ways, I can't. I'm cruel, and petty, and talk about people behind their backs just as much as anyone else. And now I'm on a obligatory, self hate rant just like the rest of the world.

I want to know what the world would be like if we all just said what we felt without regard of others feelings.

Perhaps we would make some enemies, but if they couldn't respect us telling them our honest feelings, would we really want them as friends? I want to believe in a world where we won't have to put on fake smiles and acts to be considered good people. Where we are free to be angry and hurt and upset without everyone labeling us as pessimistic or negative. I want to be in a place where people tell the truth, instead of waiting til you leave the room to tear you down.

What if we could all just live a happy life allowed to feel and think how we wanted without the fear of being judged?

What if for one day, we could just be ourselves?