Obligitory Angry Rant

I'm home, and that's good.

Well, it would be better if my dad and sister weren't at each other's throats, but whatevs. Some things cannot be avoided. Besides, it's mostly because they're both stubborn, but it sucks cause my mom and I are just sitting in the middle going "what the hell".

More than anything I'm really tired. Which is naturally why I'm choosing to sit up and write in this stupid thing rather than get some well deserved sleep. I need that sleep, and I'm going to explain why. There are three very good reasons actually. 1. It's Thanksgiving, 2. I have to help my mom cook, and 3. Chelsea is coming over and I need all the mental strength I can gather for that eventuality.

But you ask, "Kelsey, why is it bad that Chelsea's coming over? Isn't she like your best friend ever?". To this I can only say that while Chelsea is one of my best friends, she also makes me want to scream and punch kittens. This is saying a lot because I freakin' love kittens.

I wouldn't be so against her coming over all of a sudden, but she made things sort of incredibly weird and I don't know how to handle it. The only way I can really handle it is to shut it down before it even really begins, because if she gets her foot in the door she's coming in whether you like it or not.

The night before I flew home I get a text at 11:30 at night, when I'm sleeping, from Chelsea asking if I would be mad if she tried to hook me up with one of her friends. I said not really, figuring "what's the worst that can happen?". Oh, the worst was yet to come. The girl is 21, lives in Ogden, and the reason Chelsea knows her is because she's one of her Cosplay friends. (For those of you who don't know Cosplay is when you dress up as a character from something and go run around with other people who like to dress up as characters from something. Generally, this means you have no real life or responsibilities. Not always, just a good amount of time)

But it's okay, she's good at long distance relationships, her last girlfriend was from California.

On top of all this, I get sent her phone number so I can call and/or text her to find out if she would want to hook up.

Is it so wrong for me to feel completely floored that someone who has had not one, but two disastrous long distance relationships with girls who could hardly function feels like they can tell me who it would be good for me to date? Or to think that if you're 21 you should have your life put together, at least to the point where you're not hanging around a group of people ages 14 - 19 who are still dressing up like video game characters from games people stopped caring about years ago?

I feel like I sound like this terrible person, but I can't help but feel that some of it is justified. Perhaps I'm just bias, but it seems to me that anime and Cosplay were just something Chelsea and I were into in middle school. It was like a rebellious phase, and while I grew out of it, she never did. When the rest of us moved on, she stayed stuck in that fantasy world where all your dreams are going to come true and reality never becomes, real. And while there's nothing wrong with being a dreamer, or having dreams, there comes a point when you have to accept that not everything is the way you envisioned it.

You have to grow up. You have to start doing well in school. You have to realize that people expect certain things of you.

That's the end of that rant. It's just been knocking around in my head the last couple of days and I need to write it all down before my head explodes. I like my head better the way it is. I just feel frustrated and tired. I also probably wouldn't have cared if I had just got to deal with this from school, but it all happened when I came home, so there's no chance of avoiding it.

Awesome.

But it's all okay because a friend looked up the Internet definition for creativity in his blog the other day. This gives me comfort because I now know I'm not the only one who turns to shady Internet dictionaries when I need to make a point. To him, I say thank you. And love you!